happiest of full moons, loved ones. the days leading up to this special celestial event have been filled with sweet confirmations, surprises and boosts of encouragement. the energy has definitely shifted for me, going from hectic and stressed to excitable, prepared and abundant. It feels like there’s a lot of luck and fortune in the air right now, and many of the plans that seemed far-fetched and scrambled are now coming together in harmonious ways. this energy is incredible optimistic to me, and I wanted to share some of the threads I’ve been reflecting on over the last couple weeks.
in my own life, my concentration on body awareness, repression and fluidity has been heightened. i’m finding myself communicating with my mind and body more, by zeroing in on the ways that the two complement each other. january was an emotionally rigorous and spiritually violent time for me. I experienced enormous waves of doubt, envy, confusion and found it difficult to express myself in a loving, clear way. as a result, or maybe in tandem with or the driving “because of,” my body began disrupting the flow of energy and creating blockages. I experienced an array of sicknesses from head colds, congestion, sore throats, womb discomfort and more. and so I again remembered the relationship between the mind and body. my thoughts were spiraling into stress and anxiety, and it was very hard to focus or create any kind of inspirational or uplifting change in my life. last month was one of my spiritual lows, and as painful as it was, it reminded me that perpetuating the disconnect between my mind and body by ignoring my heart would produce unfavorable results, regardless of how spiritual or conscious I believed I was.
the Heart has always been the transmitting channel and meditator for my mind-body union. when I experience anxiety, fear and hopelessness in response to events that may or may not be upcoming, those thoughts must make their way through my Heart space before they can take root in my body. when my Heart is healthy, it discerns which thoughts can serve my growth and support the life I want to create for myself from the ones that support self-sabotage and ego-comfort. to me, a Healthy heart is forgiving, patient, firm and clear. it is so pure and true in itself that “logic,” anxiety, or wounding cannot cloud its clarity. and when my Heart has not been nourished in the proper ways, it gives my thoughts that final “okay” to take up residency in the rest of my body, slowly creating blockages in my throat, gut, womb… a Heart that has been ignored or made to believe it is not worthy will allow these thoughts to pass through it and infiltrate my vessel.
what does affirming my Heart look like? forgiveness… gratitude. presence. allowing myself to fully settle down and relax into the truth that I am loved, important, valued, and always evolving. it looks like being aware of my energy and values when I enter spaces that might tempt me into misalignment. it looks like being gentle with myself when I create stressful situations for myself, or choose to react to existing ones in a way that fuels the cycle of urgency or lack.
every day I am learning the ways that my Heart quietly asks me to consider its health. I have let my physical wellbeing suffer many times over the course of my adulthood, and each time I arrive at what I believe to be my breaking point, I’m drawn to natural remedies and personal tools of resilience, reflection and integration. the most powerful and transformative aides in my life, at least for this chapter of it, include mindfulness/meditation/affirmations and plant guides. for the last month, I have been working closely with clear quartz and rose. of course, there are other crystals and herbs whose frequencies and messages have pointed me in fruitful directions regarding my wellbeing. but these two masters have been incredibly versatile and remained a constant throughout my experimentation. almost all of the blends I’ve created include rose as either the base or an additive, and for various reasons. being an anti-inflammatory agent, rose produces a mild sedative/relaxing effect on the nerves and soothes irritated extremities and organs. in addition to its physical properties which have directly served my personal needs, rose works in tandem with the Heart to enhance existing feelings of kindness, compassion and forgiveness.
in conjunction with my meditative rose sessions, clear quartz has been at the forefront and foundation of my healing and introspection. I utilize this powerful crystal to amplify and illuminate existing energies in my consciousness. it’s an excellent crystal for arriving at clarity, especially if there’s self-doubt and uncertainty in decision making, and never fails to remind me of what is currently available to me.
every time my health falters, I am called to go within and assess where the energy first became blocked or repressed. these are two of the guides that have personally assisted me, and I am forever grateful for them having found their ways into my life. in honor of the sidereal Leo Full Moon, I am centering emotional strength and dynamic expression, as well as more tropical Virgo-aligned themes of intestinal wellness and whole body detoxing. I have also opened my shop for the first update of 2019. I am so, so grateful to be here and to you I say, thank you and be well.